Life of a Blogger: Fears

August 28, 2014 Life of a Blogger 15

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Topic: Fears


I am absolutely terrified of spiders. This summer, I slept in my living room for TWO months because a spider egg hatched in my room and there were a billion little baby spiders everywhere. It was a nightmare. I was an emotional mess at first. I cried. A lot. And I totally flipped out and would not even walk by my room.

Everything is better now, though. I am sleeping in my room and I haven’t seen a spider in two weeks (thanks to this fantastic spider spray stuff that is supposed to kill them- also totally safe by the way).

Bugs generally freak me out. Ants, beetles, ladybugs, moths, mosquitos, flies, grasshoppers, etc. I will spaz if any are even brought too close to me. I’m not even kidding, I just can not handle being around any type of bug.

One time, a grasshopper ended up in the pant leg of my jeans while I was walking my dog and I don’t think I’ve ever taken pants off faster than I did that day. There may have also been screaming.

I get a little awkward around strangers. I don’t know if it’s a fear, really, but I just absolutely hate meeting new people. It’s not the people part, just the new part, that bothers me. Once the I’ve met and gotten used to a person, everything is fine. I’m a bit anti-social, maybe?

It’s the total opposite on the internet, though. Odd, huh?

Letting people down is something that really bothers me, like I’m afraid to disappoint people. If someone expects something of me, I will do my very best to meet those expectations (unless they’re bad things…) This typically only goes for people who are important to me, but I even feel pressured to meet expectations of teachers, friends, and even people I don’t know (like those who read this blog, for example).

I think that’s pretty much all of my fears. At least, my current ones anyway. I used to be afraid of the dark and of ghosts and other countless things. I’ll probably gain new fears as I get older, too.

Now that you know I’m a total wimp when it comes to bugs and spiders, feel free to share your fears in the comments! 🙂


About Jessica

Jessica is an twenty year old blogger who lives in Michigan. She's currently a junior in college. She's a full-time student and part-time employee. She loves to read young adult fiction, especially contemporary, romance, and dystopian. Feel free to drop by and say hi by leaving a comment on one of her blog posts- she'll be sure to reply!

15 Responses to “Life of a Blogger: Fears”

  1. Lola

    I am terrified of dogs, I have no idea why exactly, i think it has something to do with the fact that I can’t predict what they are going to do. I grewup without much pets around us, beside some rabbits and goldfishes. And my mom was afraid of dogs, so I think that somehow translated over to me. I love seeing pictures of dogs though and I think they are adorable animals. If I know one dog long enough I can get over my fear of that specific dog.
    Beside that I am also afraid of heights, elevators, airplanes, rooms without windows (especially small rooms), orca’s and not having control.
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    • Jessica

      I have a few friends who are afraid of dogs, too. I grew up with cats and dogs, though, so I’ve never been afraid of them. My mom actually was attacked by a dog when she was three and has a scar, which is kind of scary, but I guess it never really bothered me.

      Heights bother me, but I can handle it most of the time. Thanks for sharing! 🙂

    • Jessica

      I can relate somewhat to your fears. With my parents, whenever I bring home a report card with mostly A’s and B’s, they always pressure me to improve those B’s, as if I’m not trying to do so already. I’m okay with a mess in some situations, but most of the time I like to be organized. Thanks for sharing! 🙂

    • Jessica

      Talking in front of people! That’s the worst. Once I ended up moving across the front of a room while talking and didn’t realize it and it was awful (I was actually reading an essay so my eyes were focused there, so that’s why I didn’t notice).

      You ALWAYS end up in my spam folder and I have no idea why! It’s a good thing I scroll through a bit before deleting them. 🙂

  2. Lola @ Hit or Miss Books

    Who on earth likes spiders?? A girl in my math class… She literally picks spiders with her hand!! She’s crazy 😉 I’m not actually afraid of spiders because where I live they’re usually not that ugly or in grand quantity but I don’t like them either. At all. Oh, so sorry what happened in your room!! If it helps, I had a similar problem but with flies this summer. There were babies EVERYWHERE and they grew up and I had to kill like 10 per days and there were always some in my room and the sound they make just drives me crazy huhhh.
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    • Jessica

      That’s true! I live in a woodsy type place and they are everywhere! We also have flies sometimes, especially if my mom leaves our door open, and I hate them, too!

  3. Connie

    I think most people are afraid/nervous around bugs in some form or another, haha. I’m especially jumpy around bees–because I know that they have the ability to sting, I automatically assume each bee exists for the sole purpose of causing pain to humans (which I know is not true, but I can’t help it). The second I hear “bzzz” I immediately flinch xD

    I’m a lot more comfortable talking to new people on the Internet as well, haha. Because typing smiley faces is a lot easier than trying to appear ‘friendly’ in real life, I can delete/edit posts whenever I want, and I never have to worry if I look okay…
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    • Jessica

      I hate bees, too. Not having to be face to face with people does help make me less nervous when talking to them! 🙂 Thanks for commenting!

  4. Jessi @ Novel Heartbeat

    “and there were a billion little baby spiders everywhere”

    My entire SOUL is cringing right now O___O
    I have a problem meeting new people, too! I’m socially awkward in general and struggle with any kind of social interaction, so when it’s someone who I don’t know it’s even worse!

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